Twilight

Today I watched Twilight with a person who currently holds my heart and he doesn't know it. [er... i think he doesn't] It started out good and wonderful. He came to my house a bit late cause of traffic. But it was all good, more time to spend together.

Today I made a promise to myself that I'm not going to do any physical contact with him. And for the first time i've kept that promise. I even forced my hand into my jacket so they wouldn't be linking with his. But instead it was HIM who did the initial contact. He hugged me from the back [my most favorite hugs] I know that me and him ended things awhile ago. But this? Him doing this? ... confuses me. And he opens the doors for me before he goes into the car. Before he NEVER did that EVER! I'm hoping that he doing that to be cute. But he may just do that for everyone. I'm totally confused.

It felt like old times. Mind over matter I kept repeating that over and over in my head. But towards the end, my emotions broke free. When he walked me to my door our little date ended with a hug. Even though inside i wanted so much more. I wish things were how they were. Where I could just live, laugh and not worry about anything else as long as he's by my side. But now, it's not like that. When our hug ended, we just parted ways. He walked to his car and I walked to my room and cried.

I know that it hurts me every time i'm with him or around him. But i can't help it. I like him too much. I'm an idiot to keep on asking him to "hang out", lame excuses to pick up my brother from school to just see him and to think of reasons to call him. Cause each time when i see him or hear his voice... it's like stab in my heart.

I've tired to let go, but i can't. I don't want to yet.

My First Blog

Today is November 25, 2008. And this is my first blog on blogger, actually in EVER. I didn't have school this week, which is totally awesome. But i'm bored now.

I spent my WHOLE day today on gaiaonline.com [go check it out if you want] making banners for gaians for gold. I've been questing for awhile. I finally got my Staff of Angels yay! My best friend bought me the Prism Butterfly Mantilla! Totally awesome! ( Only because she doesn't go on it anymore but still [ I LOVE YOU DESI! ] ) To finish my quest i only need a cloud and an elegant veil. Urgh, as of right now I only have 35k blah. I need about 56k more for an elegant veil. This is going to take me forever! Unless there's many nice gaians whose going to tip me nicely hehe :] but the chances of that is slim. Blah whatever haha.

I finally got my iphone back! It's fixed yay! And I just downloaded this really neat google app. It's voice search activated. hehe. I tested it out, and it also awesome!

Urgh, i'm so bored. Yesterday was an interesting day. Tomorrow i'm finally going to watch twilight! FINALLY! I've re-read the book yesterday to refresh my memory. ^-^ And this friday = BLACK FRIDAY SHOPPING! WHOO! And right after black friday, i'm going to be in Vegas with my fam bam. :] Circus Circus! whoo! cause I'm too young to gamble LOL Let's go when i'm 21 yeah?

Alright. I'm going to skedaddle now. Bye Bye